Who is this Murphy guy anyway? A total pessimist that lurks around in my head on those late nights as a FTM....Usually laughs at me and all of my blunders as I clumsily navigate the world of being a mommy. A First Time Mommy that is....so you can imagine....Murphy and I spend a lot of time together and we do not get along very well...He is usually there to say, "Yep! I saw that one coming!".
I WAS the calm, cool, collected and laid back person. "No worries" being a common phrase of mine as well as "no rush!". NOW I am the typical clutz...the one that is awkwardly trying to look cool yet figure out where the car seat fits into the shopping cart..Breaking a sweat over the fear that if I mess this up Tookie may not go to college....The sweat breaks out and Murphy pops into my head- If there is a new experience to be had, this FTM will break out into a sweat-filled-nerve-wracked-lesson-about-to-learn-frenzy.
What is that? The fear of something going wrong, the knowledge that it won't and the voice saying "don't screw this up!". I consider myself fairly intelligent, educated with just enough common sense...When it comes to being a Mommy...a new mommy...my world is upside down. So the notion that if something can go wrong it will....it does....it's funny....and I guess the very first lesson for me..."Let it go" and "it's not going to be perfect"...
SHUT UP MURPHY~ It will be fine. Tookie will grow up to be the best person she can be and the fact that I struggled with where to put her carseat, to wear a coat in the carseat or not, the sleeping-baby-transfer-to-the-crib-and-wake-up-immediately etc... You will flub, you will think you look like an idiot...but wouldn't you know...the baby will always think you rock...and you know what...You do....you rock...I rock....right?
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